Sunday, September 03, 2006

there's too much that ive been wanting to say in 2 days.

dear friend,
to say that i was shocked to hear THAT news, was shocker of e year for me.
im glad to know that u actually considered my feelings & opinions about e matter before confiding to me. just so u know, my perception of u has never changed & will never change. it's not like u made such a grave mistake. try to think of it as an... accident. bound to happen sometime. it sucks. but just move on alright. tell him to take it easy! im here for u. always. like uve been for me. (gaaawd! i hate sounding like such a preacher. sorry if i was ever too blunt to u.)

other than that, i found out some surprising facts along e way. facts which i should haf predicted a looong time ago. but due to e fact that i am who i am, e facts chose to crawl to me late. its not their fault. really. but i just wished i'd knew it longer. that's all. im not saying that it cheated my feelings. coz it ddnt. maybe, just maybe, e shock hasnt fully sunk in yet. & it's really NOT helping that my thoughts keep on hovering over those facts. facts which can actually change my perception about a person BUT im choosing not to. coz to me, that's just not right. i shld be more open-minded from now on. yes i will. i thought i was open-minded before.. but this incident brought a whole new meaning to those 2 words.


so my week's break has gone & past.
i must say im proud of e way ive spent it. i managed to complete my half of e project, i helped mum for downpayment on swensens galore, i read a whole storybook in 7 hours non-stop, watched half of e prison break series. gaawd! wat a treat!! hah.

i know i should haf spent time revising! oh crap..
but that's just not on my list right now. im really a last minute person ya noe. (think of ALL e times ive been late for evrything. yeap)

to tell u e truth, im dreading tmr. DREADING. cn i just tell god to fast forward e time for me? i mean, its not too much to ask for riiite?
sometimes i just wished i was more grown-up to handle situations.

oh, happy tunangan to my cousin, kak yaya. im so estatic to know i have future additions to e family soon! & im proud of u kak yaya.. way to go!

me, mum & e happy tunang-er! wooots =)

posted by: [nurul]haya @ 8:46 pm

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