Tuesday, January 30, 2007

2nd ICA is done.. like phew! im so proud of my group coz so far, e feedbacks have been pretty darn good! which means.. we might get that A after all.. (a distinction would be a bonus beb).. but seriously.. considering how bloody slacked we all are.. im surprised we could produce such good stuff! haha.. like lukman said.. "self praise is NO PRAISE"..

sorry bro.. in our case, i have to say.. we really have e ability & intelligence to come up with GOOD LAST MINUTE PROJECTS. we're THAT good.. heheh!

oh, & fyi, abg came up with a name for oursleves. its not 4 guys & a girl anymore.. now we're...

DE SLACKERZ!! gawd!

busy, busy dizzy... & haf i mentioned i love my boys to bits??? (& this was 2 hrs before our presentation. how smart..)

ok.. enuf praising for the day...

let's talk about something else shall we?????????

long train rides can really be therapeutic & at the same time, it makes a person think TOO much in fact (esp trips to school between 10-3.. dont ask me abt the timing, im clueless myself. hah!)..

ever since ****, ive been day dreaming about many "what ifs".. i know i always self contradict. sometimes i dont even know WHY i do that. its in my natural genes i guess.. everytime i feel like i can FINALLY do it, ill take a step back..

& i dont think im letting my guard down anytime soon. call me a coward or a non-risk taker, i dont care. ive taken too many impulsive risks in e past. im never going down that road again. im too darn tired. really really tired. somehow, i just feel like living life for myself, my family & my friends..no one else.

so let's see.. i think ive just summarised in a whole jargon of crap that I THINK TOO MUCH & that IM NOT READY TO STEP INTO A PERSONAL BOUNDARY...

i think ill survive on fantasies for now.. ill live. like i always do...

this song is now stuck in my head. & its not helping that daddy & I have been listening & singing it since yday.

AKU TAK BIASA - by the late indonesian singer, Alda...

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Aku tak biasa bila 'ku tak mendengar suaramu
Aku tak biasa bila tak memeluk dirimu
Aku tak biasa bila 'ku tidur tanpa belaianmu
Aku tak biasa... Aku tak biasa...

posted by: [nurul]haya @ 10:33 pm

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