im listening to "Take a Bow" & its been on repeat mode for a good 15 minutes now.

there's just so much going through my head. have you ever felt like you're being singled out by so many others and they still put on a show to make you feel wanted, needed? it's so messed up that i dont even know where to begin. not that i've ever regretted doing what i've been doing. i do what i do because i believe my conscience is clear. i believe that i'm this good, friendly person who actually cares about making friends rather than making them authorotarical (did i just make sense?!) i've nothing to hide. like the saying goes, what you see is what you get. if you feel like getting others to buy drinks for you is a mistake, a taboo? let me ask you, what century are u living in? it's ok for you to talk you know, i mean it's always fun to gossip about others (isnt that what we do 67% of the time?) but dont you get tired saying the same old things? i wont change. why should i change my personality just so i can fit your perfect little world of boring old farts? i choose to believe i'm hilarious, i'm fun & i'm a cool person. so to whoever it may concern, try to think FRIENDLY will you?!

sadly, i cant bring myself to be angry for long. no matter how much i force myself to feel as much angst as they deserve, i just cant! failure right?? but for the better good of the humankind (what-freakin'-ever!) i shall continue to be this loving.

fuh! that was damn tiring. alot of cheeminology has gone into that 2nd paragraph. anihoos.. time for some visual aids =)))