Friday, September 05, 2008

we've reached the 5th day of ramadan & god has already given me a hugeass (sorry god!) COBAAN.

im emotionally AND mentally drained. i'm so damn tired i can't take one minute to catch my breath.
right now, to tell you the truth, i wished the ground i step on could swallow me whole. no, i'm serious.

yes i made the biggest mistake (not to mention, FUCKING stupid) i could probably ever make but i'm only human, yes? i shouldn't have done this, i shouldn't have done that. i should have done this, i should have done that. and to top it off, they didn't even approach to say that they matter's solved. & presumably, i'm taking 100% of the blame.

alright then, put the blame on me. me, & no one else but me.

i'm dead tired. i need a rest. i deserve it.
well, maybe i don't.

depressing, isn't it? i'll survive. paste that ever smiling face to everyone & tell them i'm ok.
i shall NOT dwell on this shit & move on.

posted by: [nurul]haya @ 12:14 am

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