i have started to miss the American quotes and endless charming sarcasm..
In every American there is an air of incorrigible innocence, which seems to conceal a diabolical cunning.
So said the American.. that yank (hold on, he's not even from NY but aren't all americans generalised that way?) has travelled his way to India. SEPO, thanks for the sweatshirt and yes, i'll not wash it for as long as i shall live. your smell lives on, my annoying friend.
2 weeks.. FUCK, 2 weeks and i'm home. i'm so proud of what ive managed to accomplish thus far, could have done better, but meh. i'm happy. there's much for me to pack and settle.
christmas and shopping lists are still on its way.
oh and just so that my grandkids are still updated about my rocking melbourne life, your grandma here, got her box of shoes and bags (yes, ALL THAT SHE OWNS IN AUSTRALIA) thrown into the rubbish truck crusher. i was fully and utterly depressed for 2 whole days. claim is on its way, though the chances are
mighty slim, so ive been told.
like joel said, i think i've learnt to make my heart steel to goodbyes. ive not cried one tear since everyone left. oh no, dont say it just yet....... my turn, will come. and by god i hope there's that one hot guy in the plane home to wipe my sordid tears for me.
i need to fill my void with more shopping, YES I WILL! ma, sorry for that long ass credit card bill. i sayang you many many =D
i miss you 2 much and i love you STRONG STRONG!!! penang and ipoh mari =)
it is weird how 6 months ago, i couldn't wait for winter to arrive, and now.. the heat of summer has started to take over, i wish i was still back in July. The heat is surprisingly bearable these past few days, considering the cool breeze that has been sweeping Melbourne at night. it's been nice.
one sad imminent fact I have to face though, I'm coming back home in a month. the saying, "omg! how time flies!!" never gets old. With heaps of activities, work, roadtrips I'll be doing, I KNOW the month will zoom by.. aaaand... I'm not liking it one bit.
I'm pretty much cherishing my last days with the boys and Sus and Georgie before we all head our separate ways. god knows how much I'll miss them and they've all already plan to crash my wedding (which has yet to be determined considering the future husband hasn't shown himself to me, duh) with copious amounts of alcohol. HAHA. gawd I love these kids!!
Nikh has left for India. Fids is on the plane to Los Angeles as we speak. Marian's leaving for Malaysia this Friday. Miro is heading to South Africa for volunteer work next week.
and me??? my plans are all coming through, insyaAllah. but thank god I won't be left in college alone for the summer.. so yeay Joel =)) you and I are gonna blow each other's brains out, I KNOW IT!
oh oh oh! guess what I saw outside my window 2 days ago?!!?
i'm having one of those days where motivational speeches would probably kick me in the butt. 2 days till my final uni exam ever. excited? yes.. nervous? definitely.
mum keeps telling me how much she can't wait for me to be home again. so do I. I have a feeling that she and I will come to an understanding that I want more now. more than ever to see what the other side of the world has to offer, my thirst and hunger for travelling and knowledge and power.
6 weeks, till I see good ol' Singapore. wait till I say.. "aaaaahhh.. it's good to be home."
however, for now.. once Friday morning has passed, I shall shove away the books and with so much to look forward to, I would definitely hate to see the 26th of Dec roll by.
I seriously wish I was back at these amazing places... =(
Lake St' Clair in Cradle Mountain
Balconies Lookout in the Grampians
Gordon Falls Lookout in the Blue Mountains
p.s: i am quite the brilliant photographer, aren't I? so proud of myself please *beams*
hokay. i've been wanting to write proper for quite some time now and right now, my situation has finally warrant it.
I HANDED IN MY LAST FREAKING UNI ESSAY!!!!!!!!
ok, so i screamed, i danced a jiggy and i literally fell over my bed. i pulled a massive all-nighter for this one (it's my law paper. dammit).. and now what worries me are getting all my results back for all the assignments.. life's tough.
not the point i wanted to make, really.
point is, i filled out my "notice to vacate" my college room form. saddest form i've ever had to fill up. it's finally sunken into me that i'll be home soon. cait is leaving this saturday and she's packed all her luggages, sent it off to sydney. Em is leaving a day after her. and the rest will soon follow.
good news is im moving in with Joel, so yeay! much has been planned for december. with schoolies and weekend trips.
thing is, they havent called me for work for nearly a whole month now, and im LITERALLY DYING OF BOREDOM. apart from the fact that ive been watching so much tv, my eyeballs are gonna stick out somewhere!
mum's being a real lifesaver at the moment.
i think i shall explore Melbourne city for the last time when ill be by myself, doing the whole self-exploration thingy.
my only exam paper is on the 20th, so that gives me plenty of time. it'll not be long till I have to start packing again.
anyways, nursing ball next friday with Rhi and Kels.. exciting!
so i'm left with a couple of months here. I can't even begin to describe the sudden sadness that has started to sweep my mind. By the end of Nov, everyone will say their goodbyes, and i'll be here for awhile longer, by choice, to reminisce a little about this country i've grown very much in and learnt to love it like my own. I'm sure many who have been in my shoes before have probably felt the same way as I did.
Love, Life, Happiness, Laughters... my family here has basically taught me THAT MUCH.
my cousins have started to ask me if i'm excited to be heading back home. How ironic that a year ago, they asked me if I was excited to be coming here. As selfish as this may sound, not yet. But responsibilities at home are waiting. Not that i'm being ignorant about it, i'll just leave it be for now. I havent seen it ALL yet. not just yet.
Hobart was one for the books. I never realized that I could learn to love people as friends in the shortest amount of time. We met the funniest guys at the backpackers, who treated us like queens for the week.. long story for another time, really. Cait & I definitely had the most amazing time together (obviously, we were irresistably charming!). And much can be said about my Canadian friend, you are definitely one of the funniest people i've come across, in my life, and you have become someone very dear to me. This is for you Caity boo boo, boo boo boo...
I love you baby girl and may we stay in touch for the longest time ever. Have your fun in New Zealand and i'll definitely miss you so... xoxo.. your noodlepoodles =)
p.s: so the boys said they're gonna fly the both of us to Adelaide, yes??? call Pete & Jason, NOW!
so Cait & I are in Hobart right now. such backpackers, we are. parents are not the happiest people on earth right now but i'm only 22 once please. (I already owe them heaps anyway.. what's a little bit more eh?)
thanks bu =) and suddenly i cant wait to get back to work..
in the meantime, we're cycling DOWN mount Wellington tmr.. SEXCITIIIINGGG!!!!!!
i just spent my entire monday churning out 2000 words that has some relations to spina bifida. monday blues much??? and my poor brother just stayed in the room, engulfed himself in movies while he waited patiently for me. sigh, sorry lah dik. but think about it, SYDNEY TOMORROW BABY! like others, i cant wait to see opera and the bridge from the ferry wharf again. i miss it please.
and since fb is refusing to upload my photos, first weekend with adik here has been fantastic. it's really just nice to have him around to piss the shit out of me again. i can say this again, feels like home =)
there's a story behind this btw =) (obviously, I was the winner, duh!)
what is the best thing about my home nursing job now??
a) it's nice to be able to practice some basic skills again
b) i've been travelling ALL OVER melbourne, seriously (to the point that when i drive to work, I know the roads at the back of my hand!)
c) when i enter a client's house, I feel like there's so much history in it and being the inquisitive person that I am (well, a politer way of saying that i'm a busybody), i see how they were when they were younger, their achievements and their families.. it's interesting
d) i go with them to their hairdresser's appointment, have tea and chocolate macaroons with them and pick flowers by the road (because the elderly has a freedom of choice here and they're just so independent!)
e) though I feel EXTREMELY exhausted, i kinda of like it. opens my eyes to a whole lot of a different expect of nursing
so simply put, I'm glad i landed this gig and it's nice to earn my own dough again.
I need a massive long sleep. It's been awhile since i get to get up past 8am! so yes, I'm shit-ass tired now so goodnight lovelies.
Mid-Sem break has started!!! and as usual, the boys and Georgia have all gone back home. Cait left for the Gold Coast this morning (bitch) and Chris left for Newcastle (bigger bitch). omg i already miss them! Thank god for Sus and her 2 week break from placement.
Have I ever mentioned just what an angel my dear Sus is? i think not. i love this woman for trusting me with her car, for letting me drive to work in the morning & for not being afraid to try my weird dishes. We've always had amazing adventures together & of course, the first country out of Aussie she wants to visit is our tiny island. I feel very honoured thank you. She wants to wear our baju kurung, go figure!
so yes, I was supposed to head out to Blanket Bay this week for a camping trip with the boys but the weather's been utter misery. i know Victoria needs rain, but chill on the 100km/hr winds??? if only im 30kg lighter, i'd be floating somewhere down the Murray River i tell you. so yes, that camping trip shall remain undecided for now.
on another entire different agenda, Simon Black gave me an 18 day extension. SERIOUSLY? that arse is mad.. buuuuuttt, i'll take it. 4 more essays and I'm over it!
Adik will finally be in the same city as I am! as you can tell, i am VERY much excited. It also means more exploration of dear Victoria and what-has-she. I was asking him what he would like to do when he gets here and by the sounds of it, we're gonna conquer it all! woot woot!!
(p.s: boy, please bring your cold wear thank you. like i said, Melbourne weather is the MOST unpredictable thing one can only experience & imagine).
speaking of exploring, guess where i went to last weekend..
the Great Alpine Road baby! yeah.. it was very much beautiful & breath-taking views all the way. I've always been contented with the Sony Cybershot that i own but just for that moment, I truly wished i had a better camera on me. But all was good. What I got to see was pretty much embedded in my memory as soon as i saw all those gorgeous alps. I was once told that the best camera was our eyes =) As much as it was fun road tripping with the girls, i wished people i loved back home got to see what God has allowed me to see of His creations.
these were pretty much what I saw all 1000km worth. I'm starting to wonder if I'll be able to do this when i get back home. Road trips, camping, the shenanigans...
BUT, enough dwelling cause essays are due right about now and I'll be on another holiday soon enough. oh you know me, never enough! =D
called mum from Safeway to ask her about ingredients and from no-where i started tearing. seriously, i thought i could do the whole "raya away from home" shit, but i guess not. what i really miss about today would be waking up to Ibu's screamings, telling us to get ready to visit the first house as Nyai is at Aman Dos's place. the traditional 'minta maaf' to everyone in the family and of course, stuffing myself with glorious food and the many arrays of cookies and cakes. i miss this.
called Dad when i got back home and I started to cry again. I never had to minta maaf over the phone ever and I could hear Dad starting to well-up just from his voice but all he said was "it's ok. Ayah doakan hari-hari semoga kakak selamat selalu. Jaga diri baik-baik, lagi 2 bulan kita jumpa ok?"
and what did dear Mum say? "Ibu dah maafkan kakak dari dulu & selalu memaafkan."
as I am typing this, i am still crying over the fact that the whole first day of raya has gone and past without me being in the presence of family and relatives.
you can say it's an experience all right and I did it. thank you to my beloved Marian and Mirosha who are always there to celebrate and acknowledge these little things from home and enjoy it with me. what would i ever do without them here? i dont know.
oh, and i've been listening to raya songs on REPEAT for the past week. i miss home, i really do =(
so here's a little video of my lonely raya di rantauan dedicated to family and friends.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN KEPADA SEMUA.
jikalau Nurul dah terkasar bahasa atau tersilap kata, mohon ampun sepuluh jari dan sehingga kita berjumpa pada tahun depan..
I love you and miss you all back home terribly much and i'll be home soon =)
why do i always get a kick out of watching horror movies when i know it scares the mother freaking crap out of me?? i am an epic failure. but, this was pretty damn gooood...
and i got myself a new top after a million years! (ok, thats a lie.. but exaggeration rocks my awesome little world kids).
sushi and playing race cars on xbox with liam.. my kind of friday night. otouto, arigato gozaimas =)
well, considering the "auspicious" date that it is today (09/09/09), i'm gonna remember the events that happened quite vividly for a very long time.
for one, i finally got called for a job and i like my client. i now know how i wish and hope my future household will look like =)
for two, my baby brother liam had a reality check and though i really didnt want to be the bearer of bad news, i'm glad i told him. you'll be alright, toto-san.
everything's looking up and i should be glad. im taking it a day at a time now and it's been awhile since i went out shopping and shits. sigh, i really do miss DFO. really.
cait is dragging me to NZ and Fiji. am seriously thinking about it. will definitely fill up my december! i love that woman, (when she's not high OR drunk).
the weather's pretty shit today but i guess it's alright when i have THIS to look forward to =)
whenever i sit down and start procrastinating, i will start realising how my time is getting a little too short around here. as much as im avoiding counting down to the day i'm flying back home, i can't (reality's a bitch, i know). so i'm not gonna think about it anytime soon (i hope) and think about my job, the places i'm planning to drive/fly/train/bus to in the next three months.
i am UBER excited and yes, it's gonna be a fruitful season kids! WOOT WOOT!!!
p.s: adik! you better start planning your own itiniery please.
i should really get some inspiration to write but the fact that my floormates are all running emotional support groups right now is just hilarious.
why that's happening you say?
well typically, you will never EVER see Sammy cry, oh, but he did. not after he got wasted and then the topic of the Victorian fires suddenly came about. trust me, its not even funny one bit. my poor Sammy. he compartmentalises his feelings so much that the moment he let it out, it took me 3 hours just to rock him back to sleep. now, that's a story ill tell my grandkids.. "ahhh.. i remember the time when your grandpa Sam cried a freaking river......."
but he's all good now and i miss him cause he's gone back to Shepp. not before he surprised me by lending his big-ass monitor for the weekend. a 'Happy Birthday (for the weekend) =)' note was what he left me. seriously, how can i not love him??? speaking of love, that boy has the licence to pillion now and we're both gonna ride out somewhere far, just far far away from here.. i miss looking at mountains and plains and long unwinding roads.
well, apart from Sammy, Liam's another story. but despite all that's happening to him right now, he was there, when i cried at 1 in the morning, for god knows WHAT reason (ok, i knew the reason but im choosing not to remember it, kapish?) and he just held me for an hour while my tears wet his shirt incessantly. and all that boy did was put japanese anime on his xbox and we both fell asleep like a baby. i love this boy too.
now, how can i forget Chris... oh my Chrissy (yeap, as gay as that may sound, im allowed to call him that). he just saw me lying on my dead, looking depressed as and he thought i was suicidal or something. same afternoon, he surprised me with a big ass box of LINDT chocolates. ok, if you dont already know, LINDT chocolates are some freaking expensive shits. but oh soooo damn good. What comes as a shock to me though is that Chris has always acted like a dickhead and an arsehole to everyone but he pulls out this one gesture, and i promised i wont call him a dickhead for a month. haha.. i love this kiddo too too..
gee.. and i just typed in 4 paragraphs about my boys when they try to make my life here a living hell everyday making fun of whatever i do. sigh.. love runs deep around here, i tell you.
but most importantly, ive gotten over it. its time for a new fish. yeap, as Jason says it, "many many fish in the sea my sister from a different mother!". hoho...
i have much to look forward to these couple of months. it makes Ramadhan move just a little faster for me =)
(a) camping trip with all the kids i love from Chis (Benny boy has a 15-men tent please.) (b) road trip with Cait, somewhere (c) adik's coming on October 8th and im just too excited to see him. i knw you're extremely excited too boy! canberra hello =) (d) HOBART.
oh please, i still have plenty of assignments and online tutes stuff to finish. so bleargh!
p.s: what's the definition of a brilliant beyond brilliant idea??
ans: putting Cait's bed into my room to make a Queen and a slumber party with everyone watching Little Rascals and Dennis the Menace.
